I have this on going project and character I've been focused on called Mick Morbid. The character and idea come from a dark place within me after facing some trials and tribulations with love. The sad thing about all of this is that PAIN can spark creativity beyond levels one could ever imagine and that creativity is so wonderful and eye opening, why can't my creativity be at this all time high without the PAIN? Mick Morbid was born out of abandonment...long story short, my mind drifted while my heart was hurting during a two month phase of being in limbo not knowing if the person I loved was even around anymore (physically & emotionally)...after finally getting the crushing confirmation that my relationship was over the character, or should I say alter ego, Mick Morbid came alive - not only in my art but in my everyday life. With all of this going with me I learned to do more with myself when it came to lighting, editing, even did a lot of heavy reading on life, psychology, human anatomy, fitness as well as books on language (Russian and German). I dived into myself and learned more about myself from my emotional spectrum, physical capabilities as well as that dark side inside of me that we all have. I got close to that abyss and jumped in.
I took everything I learned and it sparked my creativity with photos and videos. I was in touch with every song I heard that related to my situation, I could feel the pain of people I've met that had suffered bad breakups, heartache and had rode those emotional roller-coasters when it came to "love" and failing at it. During this time I made new friends and rediscovered old ones, lost a few and banned together with a lot of lonely, damaged and broken hearts.
So my photography took on a different look and became more gloomy, dark and morbid - a lot of blood came into play and well the result was good from what I saw. I posted my work here, on instagram, tumblr and facebook, surprisingly most people did like it even though some seemed shocked. A few that know me personally knew when the Mick Morbid series started that it was coming from a place of pain and that something in my life had changed.
This series, THE DIARY OF MICK MORBID, has been a learning experience not only in my life but in my art as well. I like that this series makes me push my skills with the camera for both photography and video. I like that this series has pushed me to get better with my editing and think even more out of the box than ever before. I know a lot of people might view these photos and think, "fucking sicko...what's wrong with this guy", but that's okay. Artists aren't truly meant to be understood, we are weird and that's that.
Here's a look at a video I did based on the character Mick Morbid: TORMENTED